They don't make 'em like that anymore

Watched Manpower on TCM .

Marlene Dietrich certainly had a way about her. Even simply in the way she spoke.
The way she delivered a line was hypnotic . I can see why she was a star.

They don't make movies like these anymore. You couldn't get away with the aloofness, the vampness. The corny dialogs and shaky sets - but there really was something magical about the black and white movies.

While films have improved a million times  over , I think we may have a lost a bit of the glamour .

There is a certain romance to these movies; not in the script  but in the way they were put together.

The Twitter

I have posted on the Twitter a few times now. Not that I was particularly missed  but I wouldn't have expected much notice anyways . I mean most of the people I interact with are in a different time zone.

I feel bad that some were concerned that having complained  about a head ache before disappearing might have seemed  like something happened . OOPS.

All is well.

I haven't told anyone on Twitter about this blog ... or really anyone at all for that matter .This isn't really something I am doing for followers . I guess this is just my nature of sharing too much information. Stuff I feel like talking about. Bits of my private self putting it out there for the world to see .

Honestly though - the world? At best I might have a couple of people look at this if I mentioned it . It isn't really the best example of showing the world your dirty laundry.

I guess for now I just like  making these little posts , regardless of the possibility of anyone ever seeing them.

And now as they say on Twitter - I am having a cup of tea.

xx

Make it count.

When someone dies it is horrible. It hurts . The loss seems unending.
You move on . The pain isn't a constant thing. Life gets back to normal. Other things take up  your thoughts.

Then something  sneaks up on you. Something clever on tv . A product at the store . A scent . A song.
Then it just tears at you like it was fresh and new. The pain that never really left . That helpless hopeless feeling. It was just waiting for that moment to  attack.

Sometimes you might even forget for one brief moment that the person has died . I hate that part . That half a second  when you think oh you know who would love this? or I must tell them about this... but you can't. hey were such a fixture in your life . Routines are different. It never makes sense.

I would never trade the memories to be rid of the pain and loss, but it still sucks. It really does.

I feel like I should explain where these thoughts are coming from. I don't really know. They just hit me. Looking at a Disney World picture of a Topiary that looks like a character from Car. It doesn't make sense.

My mother recently lost her husband . I was not close with him but I hurt for her. Even though we didn't really have anything to do with each other  (it is a whole 'nother story) his presence was a major factor in my life  because my mother is a major factor in my life. It is unsettling that he is gone. It also brings back thoughts of all the people I have lost .

My grandmothers deaths hurts the most . Maybe even more than my dad's death.
When I was a little girl I used to pray and wish on stars and  throw coins in wells - I asked for everyone I loved to live forever or at least just longer than me so I would never lose anyone.

Even then I knew it was a silly thing.

All we can do is try to enjoy the time I have with the people we love and make it count.

Lifeforce

Watched Lifeforce on Netflix last night. Some thoughts about it.

I appreciate how Non USA centric it is  in regards to space exploration and alien invasion.
Space vampires and zombies . A movie ahead of it's time. Patrick Stewart was his usual amazing self  even though I thought he was better than that part.

Mostly though I thought the space vampire girl had an amazing rack.
Envy. Serious envy.


That is all .

No One Looks 19 Forever

I was looking at CNN. Reading about scary stuff happening in the world. I felt like reading something a bit lighter after that so I looked at some of the other links on other pages and wound up on a fox news site.

Well there is your problem right there.

The article was stars who lost their looks.

Now ok,  there are some who might be considered  notable, hot messes. Bad plastic surgery , drugs, putting on some weight etc. but they are also including age . The article title alone offended  me  but  taking a quick peek at their choices really made me stand up and say WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?

Just because you don't look like a fresh faced 19 year old, IT DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE LOST YOUR LOOKS.

I mean my gosh they included Faye Dunaway saying "Although her career has remained prosperous, the same cannot be said about the 69-year-old's looks. " SHE IS 69. We should all look so good at 69. Now I am not saying there is something wrong with being 69  but it would be insane to think you would look the same as you did in your 20s. If I saw a 69 year old that gave the appearance of 19 or 20 I would be afraid to sleep at night for fear that she would suck out my soul while I sleep to rejuvenate her .

Why do we expect celebrities to never change or get older . You can still be a beautify woman in your 60s . Just because you have put on some weight and got a few wrinkles doesn't mean you suddenly have to be some old hag and live in a cave ,never to see the light of day again.

Women weren't the only ones abused in this list. COLIN FIRTH . Oh FFS. "Colin has let himself go recently"  This list is beyond me . I think most of these people are very attractive , just maybe a little older or a bit heavier . There is nothing wrong with that. One some people it is even an improvement.
I am not even going to start about adding John Cusack in there.

I look at the before and after pictures of Catherine Bach and just think *wow she is stunning , why is she on this list?* then I realize  it is because - while not a large woman  she has gained some weight compared to her Dukes of Hazzard days.

Really FOX? You should be ashamed.

I would also like to point out that the "worst" looking celebrities are frequently paparazzi pics of them out doing their business without make up. No one looks great that way.

Sure  simply being on a list  as a celebrity that has lost their looks is nothing compared to the suffering that some people are experiencing in the world but, I just wanted to point out how offensive this list is. These people are mostly very attractive regardless of their years and are human beings .

Read more: http://www.foxnews.com/slideshow/entertainment/2010/09/07/stars-lost-looks/#ixzz1Hoienv9T

Sucker Punch-Don't throw Babydoll out with the bathwater

Just got back from Sucker Punch.

Basically people only want to know is it good or is it bad?

I think most people will say BAD  but I think it was better than a lot of movies in this genre. To save you reading I give it a 3 out of 5.

 It did get me thinking about the reality and dreams presented in the movie. How much of it related to actual events the character of Babydoll (and particularly Sweet Pea) were experiencing? How much was in her mind , who actually existed and why? What did they represent ? Was it all Babydoll or was this a shared dream of the girls? Was the ending real? Was the beginning real? 

I am actually enjoying those questions.

Also yeah the girls kicked major ass. The costumes were very sexy-fied and not exactly appropriate for large scale battle. The baddies were insane in a very anime/video game kind of way (loved the undead steampunk Nazis). I certainly envied Babydoll's eyelashes. Wow for the eye make up all around in fact *sparkle sparkle*.The music was intense and really worked in the scenes.

And of course- there really wasn't back story on a lot of it. (personally I don't see how we could get a real back story on the girls because of the dream/reality aspect). I think the beginning could have had a bit more about Babydoll and maybe a bit of foreshadowing about where these dreams might have come from. A lot of things aren't explained or resolved - it really end up being up to the viewer to come to your own conclusions about these loose ends.

This movie is fast paced, loud and visually intense. It is all kinds of sexy and perhaps maybe too sexy for some people. It is about girls who have had all their power taken away. They are trying to take it back and find their freedom any way they can. Some might criticize the  costumes , make up and over all sexualization of the girls. It didn't seem that horrible to me. It is also missing a bit of heart. For  all the tears and identifying with some of the characters  I had a hard time getting  an emotional connection. Also the woman who played the Doctor really bugged me. Also I would have like to have just once seen Babydoll actually dance.

When I day dream  or fantasize  am I going to make myself a buttoned down, sensible shoe wearing, quiet woman? Or am I wearing heels that would kill me if I tried to wear them in reality , sexy, exotic , talented and powerful? 

Do I dream that the giant monster is going to squish me or some hero needs to save me or do I suddenly find the strength and kick their ass? 

Do my dreams  have to make sense and  match reality  or do they take me wherever I want to be in the end?

If I was in these girls places I would probably be clinging to my fantasy world just like them.

This is not a great movie. It could have been so much more . It SHOULD have been so much more , but the things I disliked  don't outweigh the good parts. To the people who made this movie I would say - yes, like this but better. More. You can do it.

I am glad I watched this movie. It was worth the money - even if it wasn't perfect. 

If you go see this  watch the beauty, the intense battles, listen to the music - be swept away with the intensity . Worry about the plot holes and loose ends and thin characterization  afterwards. 

I filled all those things in with my own imagination anyway.

Movies this kind of  reminded me of: Moulin rouge , Underworld , Chicago , Burlesque , Assault girls , Alice in Wonderland  and strangely Annie.

Not a peep or a tweet.

I haven't tweeted in a week. I have checked on twitter from time to time. It took me a few days to realized I even had some mentions .
Not really sure why I haven't said anything lately. It is not that I dislike Twitter. I love Twitter.  I ust seem to feel sad there sometimes . Had some negative experiences lately and a lot of stuff in my personal life has been worriesome.  In the back of my head I keep being reminded  about coming off negative or sharing too much information and then on the other hand I like being funny. Also it has seemed really slow. The part I like best about Twitter is the interaction and it just doesn't seem the same these days . I look at the screen and just don't know what to say.
Could be a weird for of writers block.

In other news I am going to see Sucker Pench last night. It hasn't had the best reviews but it looks gorgeous. I am a very forgiving movie goer. I can take a lot before I claim something is terrible.
So far the movies I have really disliked were:
Event Horizon
Contact
Scenes From a Mall.
I also wasn't fond of Mosquito Lake but I was a small child at the time I saw it and the leeches freaked me out , so I am not willing to lump that with the rest.

I am very fond of movies. I go all the time. When I was a child we were one of the first people in town with a VCR . My father had a collection of movies -probably close to a thousand. It was like having your own video store.

When I was young I wanted to be an actress. I even took drama in school and did some work "acting" or as  like to call it - pretending you are someone or something else for incredibly small amounts of money for the amusement of others.

I also worked in a video store when I was in school. I recommend working in a video store to anyone who loves movies or acting.It is the best. Better than taking a college course in film.

Hopefully Sucker Punch won't be too bad. I will enjoy the popcorn though. :)

Fabulous Monsters...

'This is a child!' Haigha replied eagerly, coming in front of Alice to introduce her, and spreading out both his hands towards her in an Anglo-Saxon attitude. 'We only found it to-day. It's as large as life, and twice as natural!'

'I always thought they were fabulous monsters!' said the Unicorn. 'Is it alive?'

'It can talk,' said Haigha solemnly.

The Unicorn looked dreamily at Alice, and said 'Talk, child.'

Alice could not help her lips curling up into a smile as she began: 'Do you know, I always thought Unicorns were fabulous monsters, too? I never saw one alive before!'

'Well, now that we have seen each other,' said the Unicorn, 'if you'll believe in me, I'll believe in you. Is that a bargain?'

I thought I might use this now and again to collect my thoughts.  

I 've had blogs,websites, facebook, forums ,myspace, twitter - you name it . I really love connecting to people all over the world and peeking into their lives. Sometimes even becoming a part of their lives. 

You get people telling you that none of that really matters. They aren't real connections. They come and go virtually when the wind changes. I say it enriches me as a person. I can see good , bad and ugly in these people. It helps me understand the world and  what kind of person I am or at least want to be. After all , when it comes down to it  all we are is stories. We live  and we die. All of our stories end . If you are lucky someone remembers you, loved you and tells your story. Some people have stories that live on for generations. Some people have stories that end before they have even really begun. 

What about me? I don't really think my story is really all that interesting. Some say I am funny . I try to come up with a funny  anecdote now and again. Some people have said sometimes I am  a bit too negative or of sharing too much information. That is fine and more than possibly true. Sometimes I feel as though I have almost conned all the people who follow me online on whatever  site I am currently on into thinking I am better than I am . That I am more funny or smarter or cooler . I do  sometimes feel I don't live up to their expectations . I really hate to disappoint people. 

I will say that I care . About a lot of things and a lot of people . As I said I hate to disappoint and I do everything I can to not let people down. I like to do things for other people. I probably do more than I should and spend more money than I should. I am working on finding a balance of making sure  my personal responsibilities are taken care of  while still being as generous as I can.

I like reading , I like music and art. I like crafts. Anything that involves creativity. 

I don't know if anyone will ever read this or what they would really think about me and my stories  but I am a real person out in this world. 

I will try to believe in you and I hope that you will try to believe in me.